Venturing into Hashimotos

Just over 4 months ago I was diagnosed with Hashimotos Disease, an autoimmune disorder that has led to hypothyroidism or under active thyroid. The symptoms include significant fatigue, sluggishness, sleep disruption, unexpected weight gain, sensitivity to cold, depression, muscle fatigue and pain. 

Many of these symptoms I’ve had for over a year now and I’ll tell you what, I wrote most of them off as a result of stress and an exceptionally active lifestyle (it's a bit amazing what we’ll ignore when the mind tells us it’s just us doing it wrong, being weak. “Suck it up!”) So I kept pushing through, exhausted, more and more each day. 

It wasn’t until a couple of friends had completed a Functional Medicine Assessment and received some pretty interesting results that out of curiosity I decided to see if there wasn’t an underlying cause to my symptoms...I booked my appointment at Green Circle Wellness and back came my results. 

To be totally honest I’m actually relieved to have the diagnosis. Yes, the symptoms are a pain in the butt but I have a course of treatment now, something I can do to alleviate the symptoms and kick this thing once and for all...something I plan to do. 

So I eat the foods that heal me and try to avoid the ones that don’t. I talk to myself everyday to develop a new relationship with my body, one that is loving and compassionate and honors recovery and engaging in gentle exercise and movement. This. Is. A. Challenge. 

I crave a good sweat, an ass kicking every single day. I love how I feel right after a great workout...I hate how I feel 30 minutes after...when, I’m so exhausted I can barely keep my eyes open. This is SO counter-intuitive but the impact is now impossible to ignore. 

So I’ve changed from HIIT to lower impact workouts and am taking walks with Sammy J and my friends. I’m getting back to a home practice of yoga and am doing my best to be still. And it’s stillness where the challenges are the greatest. 

What may sound like a dream for some, staying in, reading, down and alone time have proven to be bit of a challenge, a learning curve no doubt. One day, one inactivity at a time. 

This is new to me, I’m learning more everyday. And it is the support from you, loved ones, family, friends, clients, students alike, that inspires and educates me, probably more than you know. Thanks to all of the people who have sent resources, articles, books, favorite Insta accounts, I’m so grateful for all of that info...I’m a bit of a resource junkie so please keep them coming! I’ll be posting more of my experiences here and to my Insta feed and stories, hopeful to continue a dialogue on the importance of listening to our bodies and always advocating for a living a life that allows us to be and to feel our very best. 

Hashimotos

Super Smoothie Breakfast Bowl

When you can’t decide if it’s gonna be a matcha, smoothie or a yogurt & granola kind of morning and with indecision, decide to combine all three...voila the super smoothie breakfast bowl is born!

Pictured here are some of my very favorite things. The vibrant green is a matcha smoothie bowl base with @vitalproteins beauty greens and spirulina. Scroll on down the page to find the full recipe posted here. The velvety white section is @kitehillfoods dairy free almond yogurt and it is to die for (if you haven’t tried it, it’s a must). And finally, I topped it all off with @kitchfix grain free granola aka the reason I stopped making my own...so good, a staple in my kitchen these days.

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Yesterday morning I drove myself to the ER. After I awoke from an extremely fitful night of sleep, I found I could not swallow, it was hard to breathe. "Is it the infection in my throat?" I asked myself, "Or is it an anaphylactic response to the antibiotic?", something I'm prone to having. In that moment I could feel the adrenaline rising, I had a choice, freak the hell out or use my yoga. Honestly, I think I did a bit of both.

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Be Still Experiment: Room for 1

Room #1 at the Adobe Inn, the "expensive room" by the maitre d's standards, the longest running Inn and Restaurant in Ridgeway, Colorado.  A gem with a window into my heart.  I've stayed here with a dear friend and on that night our relationship was rocked to it's core, never recovering, never quite the same.  I've stayed here with a lover, an adventurous voyager, his vibrance, his darkness eventually taking him to his grave.  I said goodbye here to a boyfriend who when we reunited he became my fiance, my husband, and my ex. 

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Be Still Experiment: Dis-ease

Dis-ease is a physical sensation that originates from the gut, an unpleasant vibration, a tension, almost twisting, butterfly wings fluttering, the emotion that resonates is shame.  A dull, low-level nausea coincides with the sensation and increases or decreases with intensity in relation to the thoughts that I have come to call the shoulds, the spoasdas, and the coulds; the voices from past experiences, from others, from within, that distort the softer more subtle ones of truth, intuition, the gut, the self.

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The light needs the dark to shine

I find no coincidence in the fact that on this heavy, seemingly dark day, one of Chicago’s Public Schools opened its doors to me, making room, offering space for the establishment of a skill set, the skill set I believe we need.  On a day when my soul needs a hug, I was moved to tears as a team of parents, a loving principal, said yes to investing in social and emotional wellness programming for our children.

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Healing turmeric smoothie

After what feels like two straight weeks of late nights watching post season baseball, go Cubs go, I woke up this morning and decided to get creative with turmeric, a lovely orange root with anti-inflammatory effects.  What manifested was not only beautiful to look at but was delicious and energizing too.  I hope you enjoy it.

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We all need a space for our voice, for an expression of our creativity.  A place to be ourselves, to tap into our truth.  However to make space, we have to make room, clear out, clean out, and separate ourselves from our junk, something we don't often like to do.

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